I have been for some time now and I’m having a hard time getting back in the groove.
Surely I’m not the only one who does this?
But I”m not here today to talk about my downfalls … but about the Lord’s provisions in the midst of my downfalls!
You see, last night I began praying about something specific. As I was getting ready for bed I asked God if He wanted me to pursue this new thing in my life. I didn’t want to make a decision based on my own fleshly desires but wanted to walk in the Lord’s perfect will for my life.
Lord, is this something you want me to pursue? I don’t want to make a decision before I hear from you. I know I like the idea of this new thing but what would you like me to do? Because even though I like this idea, it also scares me to death. Not only is it something new and different but it would be a new location and new faces…and I’m comfortable right where I am. What would You have me to do? Do I pursue this new thing?
So I crawled in bed and even though it was late, I was bound and determined to get in at least one chapter before I went to sleep. I clicked on my Bible Reading Plan and backed up to where I am supposed to be and this is what I read…
The Lord had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you. “I will make you into a great nation, and I will bless you;I will make your name great,and you will be a blessing.I will bless those who bless you,and whoever curses you I will curse;and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you.” – Genesis 12:1-3
Can I just tell you that I cried…
I know that I’m not saying exactly what I’m praying about… I will in time…but just know this…
…even when we are behind or lacking, God is enough and still right on time!
I’ll tell you how because God has really been dealing with me on this issue. :/
To be instant means to be prepared…be prepared to spread the gospel…be prepared to tell others about Jesus…be prepared to show Jesus…
“Preach the word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage—with great patience and careful instruction.” – 2 Timothy 4:2
BUT how do we prepare ourselves?
“For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.“ – Hebrews 4:12
“All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.” – 2 Timothy 3:16-17
We prepare our hearts, minds, and bodies by reading the word of God.
We become instant when we read the word of God…
I can attest to this!
When I’m reading the Word like I should, God is constantly revealing His truths unto me…
When I am digging into scripture, He amazes me with His presence…
OK, so maybe I don’t really know the popular song ‘Shake it off’ these days even if the chorus is really catchy and makes me want to dance 💃 … But one thing I do know?
God’s Word is Truth and it can and should be applied to our lives each and every day.
Let’s read in Matthew chapter 10 where Jesus sends out His twelve disciples to continue their work for Him, their work to further His kingdom… He gives them some very wise advice.
“Shake off the dust of your feet.” (verse 14)
What if they don’t accept me? 🎶SHAKE IT OFF!🎶
What if they talk about me? 🎶SHAKE IT OFF!🎶
What if they don’t like me? 🎶SHAKE IT OFF!🎶
What if they mock me? 🎶 SHAKE IT OFF!🎶
What if they don’t like the way I dress? 🎶SHAKE IT OFF!🎶
What if they simply don’t want to hear what I have to say? 🎶SHAKE IT OFF🎶
Ladies, people are going to talk about you, people are going to ridicule you, people are not always going to agree with everything you say. But if God has asked you to say something or do something to further His kingdom, just do it!
Don’t let the fear of people keep you from obeying the voice of God.
Over the last 14 years we’ve experienced some messy days. Some days, messier and bigger than others.
We’ve went through the birth of two children, one of them being born with heart complications therefore leading to heart surgery, we’ve experienced college days, careers, leadership positions and even church hurt. I can gladly say that through the grace of God, these messy days have brought us closer together.
So why is it that toothaches, leg cramps, yelping puppies and sleepless nights can bring out the worst in us?
Why is it that we can look back on these ‘big’ trials and see the growth that has taken place during these days but then we get up one fine Thursday morning, tired and cranky (see leg cramps, puppies, and sleepless nights) and feel like we’ve taken 10 steps back?
I’ll tell you why… scripture tells us in Song of Solomon 2:15, “Take us the foxes, the little foxes, that spoil the vines…”
Ladies, these simple, mundane days…these are the days that mold us into that powerful woman of God.
The days that help us endure the ‘big’ days.
We have been given the gift to choose.
We can choose to focus on how cranky hubby was this morning and how ugly our reaction might have been…OR…we can choose to use these leg cramps and sleepless nights as growth opportunities.
So, today, no matter how your morning went or how your week has gone, or even your entire 2015, CHOOSE joy, CHOOSE peace, CHOOSE kind words, CHOOSE forgiveness.
No, we can’t do this on our own but get in God’s word, pray, seek Him.
Let Him lead you in these moments of growth because it’s the pesky little foxes that can make or break us.
Jesus replied, “and why do you break the command of God for the sake of your tradition?” – Matthew 15:3
I want to encourage you to search out God’s Word for yourself.
Yes, I’m sure a lot of us have had some good, solid teaching throughout our lives.
However, have you sought Him for yourself?
Have you ever wondered why do we do ‘this’ or why we do ‘that’?
I’m sure most of the “traditions” you follow are biblical but are they all?
I’ve learned so much over the years from very wise men and women but the biggest jump in my spiritual walk came when I began digging in and seeking God on my own.
I thank God for my parents and the spiritual leaders God placed in front of me but more than that…I thank God that He is personal with me! He speaks to me. He listens to me. And every single day He teaches me something new.
I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am THE LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name. –
Sometimes I feel that I should do more…I should have more of the right words…I should be able to fix things and make others feel better.
After all, I am the pastor’s wife, right?
One night this week I was blessed with the opportunity to minister to several different lades who were all having a really rough week. I use the word ‘minister’ very lightly because the whole time in my mind I was thinking, “you don’t even have the words to say…you may be quoting a few scriptures to them right now but they don’t want to hear that right now, they KNOW these things…they are simply having a rough week/season/life! As their leadership, how are you going to fix this?”
And then the Lord spoke these words into my spirit…
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” – Matthew 11:28-29
Friends, if we want to be like Jesus, if we want to walk and talk like Jesus, if we want to show Jesus, sometimes we must simply provide a shelter from the storms. This is how we be His hands and His feet…by wrapping our arms around our sisters in Christ and letting them cry. No, I can’t fix the situation.
I may not even have the correct “pastor’s wife” words…but I do know a God who heals delivers, restores, strengthens, and sets free! And at times, He chooses me to wrap my arms around a loved one and remind them of these truths.
When you sometimes feel like you aren’t doing enough, simply listen and let them cry…
“Pairs of clean and unclean animals, of birds and of all creatures that move along the ground,9 male and female, came to Noah and entered the ark, as God had commanded Noah.” – Genesis 7:8-9
And like I mentioned above, I was/am absolutely ‘preachin’ to myself’ here! But as I was pondering on this truth, God spoke something deeper to me…a warning, if you will. Noah did not have to go searching for his promise…God walked it right up to his front door! (Thank you Lord!) But once that took place something else happened…
Let’s go a little further down to verse 12:
“And rain fell on the earth forty days and forty nights.”
The animals walked in…but then the doors were shut again…for awhile…
It would still be some time before that Promise came full circle. As a matter of fact, it wasn’t for another 2 chapters!
I establish my covenant with you: Never again will all life be destroyed by the waters of a flood; never again will there be a flood to destroy the earth.” And God said, “This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come:I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth.Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds,I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life.Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.” So God said to Noah, “This is the sign of the covenant I have established between me and all life on the earth.” – Genesis 9:11-17
Friends, your promise is coming!…but do not get discouraged if you see a portion of your promise and then have to wait again…
“The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him.” – Lamentations 3:25
“God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.“ – John 4:24
A few years ago as I was reading in the book of John, this scripture caught my attention. I prayed and asked God to reveal to me what He wanted me to know about it. I’m going to do my best to try and explain it to you the way God gave it to me.
OK, you know the parts in scripture that say, ‘do no murder, steal, etc…’? This is a point blank command…this is TRUTH. Don’t do it. OR… ‘honor your father and mother’. This is also a point blank command. Do it.
The worshiping in truth part, I got but the worshiping in spirit part goes a little deeper. When I worship in spirit, this is when God becomes personable to me.
This is my walk, not yours.
As you enter into the presence of the Lord, fall at His feet, and seek Him like never before, God will in turn, reveal things to you like never before.
The deeper your desire to grow in God and the stronger your desire to rise in Him, the more He requires of you.
“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.“ – Jeremiah 29:13
Now this leads me to something completely different but alike all at the same time.
A short run down of my past:
I was raised in church my whole life. A very good church and by a wonderful family that taught me lots of important things. Faithfulness for one…and also that scripture trumps everything. So when I became an adult and began seeking God out on my own, I learned something new. Just because I’ve heard something all my life does not mean it is the ONLY truth…maybe there is more. Not to dismiss what I had already been taught but to discover more!
I learned how to get in and breakdown scriptures for myself and let God reveal Himself to me, personally.
So today, I want to encourage you to seek God for WHO He is…and not just who you’ve been told He was.
God is still God. He is the same today as He was yesterday and 500 years ago. He will be the same God tomorrow and He desires to have a personal relationship with you, not just something or Someone to mark off your long list of ‘to do’s’…
What does that word really mean? And does the church world REALLY want that? Are the Christians truly ready for it?
adjective trans•par•ent \tran(t)s-ˈper-ənt\
: able to be seen through
: easy to notice or understand
: honest and open : not secretive
This definition makes my heart skip a beat.
I want to be transparent. I want to be completely honest and open…but this scares me.
How honest can you be as a Lady in Leadership?
And by ‘honest’ I don’t mean that I am speaking ‘untruths’, but simply not being completely …well, transparent.
Transparency, without a doubt, requires discernment.
I know that in order for me to transparently share all of my Glorious Mess on this blog, God will, without a doubt, receive all the Glory as I live out JOY in my Journey! For there is no mess big enough that God cannot defeat! And I know that every single season of my life is a season to EMBRACE…and learn from…and grow from…and then teach from…and that is how we got here… Confessions of a Blessed Pastor’s Wife.
My husband and I have been in church leadership for most of our married life. This blog is not simply for pastor’s wives but for any lady in leadership. This can mean a pastor’s wife, a pastor, a youth leader, a Sunday School teacher, the church cleaning lady, or new Christians…there is no such thing as too much encouragement or too much JOY!
So as I was doing some research on transparency in the church, I ran across a quote from Ruth Graham:
“My vision is to collaboratively come alongside the Church to help it become a safe place for people (Christians and non Christians) to come just as they are, find a community in which to repent of sin without condemnation and be lead to the next step in their faith journey—basically, a place of outrageous grace and transparency. I believe as people see a transparent community of grace, being real about who we really are, others will see and be drawn into it—the next phase of evangelism.”
Now, don’t get me wrong…I’m not one of those preachers that is “ALL about that Grace” but I DO thank God for GRACE…
“Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.” – Hebrews 4:16
…however, I do not think we should walk all over it either. Sin is sin…and “we have ALL sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” – Romans 3:23 … and others need to be reminded of this. The world believes they can never walk a Christian lifestyle because they can never be ‘perfect’. They need to see that we have all sinned…but through the grace of God we have been SET FREE!
I absolutely believe that when someone gives their heart and life to God, change takes place!
“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.” – 2 Corinthians 5:17
Sometimes change happens quickly and sometimes it takes baby steps. This is OK. As long as the steps are going forward and not backward.
But what about all these other things we struggle with as more mature Christians? The struggle is real y’all…
This world is going to hurt you, this world is going to disappoint you, this world is going to let you down. You will struggle with your sanity at times, you will struggle with doubt and insecurity at times, you will struggle with hurt feelings and anger at times. When you stump your toe, it is going to hurt…just like when the world stumps their toe … it hurts!
Being a Christian doesn’t make us some sort of Super Hero or anything…..but we serve the Super Hero of Super Heroes and no matter what life throws our direction, He is right there to help us back up. In all our ups and down, the highs and the lows, throughout the good, the bad, and the ugly!
So, as I begin my journey of transparency, I leave you with this…
It is by yielding ourselves to Christ and saying ‘no’ to the world that we grow into women of God. We are women who revere the Lord, adore our husbands, and cherish our children. We are women of faith who believe in submitting to our husbands and being honored by God rather than disrespecting them and flattering the world. We may stumble but you can’t keep us down. We may grow weary but will be lifted up. We simply cannot be women of this world, for we are undeniably women of God.