Give me Jesus…

“Is Allison up to date on her tetanus shot?”

That was the first thing out of my husband’s mouth when I answered his phone call.  Allison had stepped on an old rusty nail.

She is up to date on all her shots though so she didn’t have to get another one.  It’s a good thing too because I think the thought of that was causing her more trauma than the nail itself! :)


This got me to thinking though about our spiritual walks…

Are you up to date on Jesus?

What happens when you step on those old rusty nails, spiritually?  The enemy likes to throw obstacles in our path, be it people or things.

How do we handle them?  Are we able to withstand the darts of the enemy or do we allow them to pierce us and then fester?

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.  Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.  For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.  Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.  Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,  and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.  In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.  Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.” – Ephesians 6

The enemy knows where our weaknesses lie.  When we are not protected, he will try to come in any way he can.  I cannot stress to you how important it is to put on the FULL armor of God.

We can’t just pick and choose what part to put on.


So, my friends, are you up to date on your Jesus shot?

Do you accept your Mission?


Your #Mission is not to please people!


Your mission is not to tiptoe around other momma’s and daddy’s (men and women) trying to be accepted!


Your mission is not to fit in!


Your mission is not to carry your feelings on your shoulders!


Your MISSION is #Love!

Your Mission is #Truth!

Your Mission is to ‘proclaim good tidings to the meek’…’bind up the broken hearted’…’proclaim liberty to the captives’…and ‘free those that are bound’!

Your Mission is to be a #PeculiarPeople!

Your Mission is to #BeYeHoly!

Your Mission is to to #Represent Jesus!

Your Mission is to #SpeakLife!

Your Mission is to be the hands and feet of Jesus!



Do you?


Color Run or Mud Run: Our Destination is the Same





I’ve questioned God, or in the very least, asked myself, “Why me?  Why do I have to do ‘this’ and how come she is able to do ‘that’?

You see, my walk with God may not look just like yours.  But this is OK.  I’m happy with who I am in God…truly I am.  That is until I begin taking my eyes off Jesus and looking at others.

Let me take you to a very familiar point of scripture.  It may not make sense in the beginning but hang with me…it should in the end.


 And in the fourth watch of the night Jesus went unto them, walking on the sea.

26 And when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a spirit; and they cried out for fear.

27 But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying, Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid.

28 And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water.

29 And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
Matthew 14:25-29

‘Bid me come Lord!’  I say this…but do I truly mean it?  I mean, I want to walk the way God wants me to walk…but on my terms.  Oh wait, that doesn’t make sense does it?  Let’s try this again.  I want to rise to a new level in God…but on my time.  Oh…that doesn’t work either.  I want to ‘fix my eyes on You Lord…but look at others in the process.  I want to know why you’ve asked me to wear skirts all the time when these high profile women’s speakers are modest in their jeans and highly favored and anointed all the same.
These questions don’t come often…but they do come.


Your questions and doubts may not look just like mine.  You may be one of these mighty anointed women of God that can do her thing while being modestly dressed in a pair of jeans but still question why other women are able to be a stay at home momma when you have to work a full time job outside of the home.


Ladies, we may all be different but still so much the same.  We all have struggles and look at other women and want what they have.  If you are anything like me it has nothing to do with material things but everything to do with eternal things.  You desire to have a ministry like hers or a life like hers…


I wonder if just maybe during these moments we’ve simply taken our eyes off Jesus.

I know scripture doesn’t quite say this but I wonder if just maybe, while looking at the storm around about him, Peter looked over at the boat and thought “How come I had to be the first one to say ‘bid me come Lord’?  Why did I have to open my big mouth?  How come they get to stay in the boat but I felt led to take that step over the edge and draw closer to the Lord?  Why can’t I stay in the boat too?  I know they are going to be used as mightily as I am and they are safe and sound inside the boat…dry…and not sinking…”


“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
    before you were born I set you apart;
    I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
Jeremiah 1:5


Ladies, it’s OK that our walks all look different.  It’s ok that we are not all cookie cutter.  It’s ok…because I might can reach someone that you can’t…and you might can reach someone that I can’t.

This is all part of God’s great plan!


I may choose the Color Run and you may choose the Mud Run…but our destination is all the same!


God has called you to be an ORIGINAL not a DUPLICATE!  Stand firm in who He created you to be and keep your eyes on Jesus!

This is your walk, not hers!


In Spirit AND in Truth!


“God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.John 4:24

A few years ago as I was reading in the book of John, this scripture caught my attention.  I prayed and asked God to reveal to me what He wanted me to know about it.  I’m going to do my best to try and explain it to you the way God gave it to me.


OK, you know the parts in scripture that say, ‘do no murder, steal, etc…’?  This is a point blank command…this is TRUTH.  Don’t do it.  OR… ‘honor your father and mother’. This is also a point blank command.  Do it.


The worshiping in truth part, I got but the worshiping in spirit part goes a little deeper.  When I worship in spirit, this is when God becomes personable to me.

This is my walk, not yours.

As you enter into the presence of the Lord, fall at His feet, and seek Him like never before, God will in turn, reveal things to you like never before.

The deeper your desire to grow in God and the stronger your desire to rise in Him, the more He requires of you.


“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.Jeremiah 29:13


Now this leads me to something completely different but alike all at the same time.


A short run down of my past:

I was raised in church my whole life.  A very good church and by a wonderful family that taught me lots of important things.  Faithfulness for one…and also that scripture trumps everything.  So when I became an adult and began seeking God out on my own, I learned something new.  Just because I’ve heard something all my life does not mean it is the ONLY truth…maybe there is more.  Not to dismiss what I had already been taught but to discover more!

I learned how to get in and breakdown scriptures for myself and let God reveal Himself to me, personally.


So today, I want to encourage you to seek God for WHO He is…and not just who you’ve been told He was.

God is still God.  He is the same today as He was yesterday and 500 years ago.  He will be the same God tomorrow and He desires to have a personal relationship with you, not just something or Someone to mark off your long list of ‘to do’s’…


Let’s worship God in Spirit AND in Truth!

A Defeated Foe…



Have you ever walked through a season in your life that your mind just wouldn’t shut down those negative thoughts?


You don’t belong there…they don’t even like you…you aren’t good enough…and you never will be…you don’t fit in with those church people…they are judging you…they are purposefully avoiding you…

Well you know what I have to say about that?




Or what about those of us who have served God for years? We aren’t above this STINKIN’ THINKIN’ either!


You don’t have what it takes…you are such a mess…how are you going to minster or lead these people?…remember what you did way back when?…you might as well just sit down, shut up, and warm that pew!



“You must learn a new way to think before you can master a new way to be.” – Marianne Williamson

It’s time we place that ole’ lying devil under our feet and get about the Master’s business!


1 Peter 5:8 says “Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.”


Now why in the world do you suppose this refers to our minds and the devil devouring all in the same scripture?


Because Satan knows how to trip us up. Notice I DID NOT say he knows how to defeat us…because we all KNOW that we KNOW that we KNOW that Satan is the defeated foe!




It’s time we tell the negative committee that is meeting in our heads to SIT DOWN AND SHUT UP!


Do you understand this? WE WIN!


However, we can’t just say “We Win!” ,we have to BELIEVE “We Win!”


“I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”Romans 12:1-2


We must ‘renew our minds’ by presenting our bodies as living sacrifices, holy and acceptable unto God.


Take those negative thoughts captive in Jesus name! #SpeakLife over that situation, whatever it may be, however impossible it may seem.


“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.” Philippians 4:8-9


If you want to keep that Stinkin’ Thinkin’, then do not follow the commands in the above scriptures. Go ahead and let that negativity come on out of your mouth…go ahead and join in on that undesirable conversation and gossip, go ahead and listen to that destructive music…go ahead and focus on the adverse…


BUT, if you are ready to rid your minds of this Stinkin’ Thinkin’, then go right ahead and surround yourself with positive examples…surround yourself with women who will uplift and encourage you…listen to inspiring music…be intentional with your words…and go ahead and focus on the TRUTH!


“And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” John 8:32



Blame it all my roots…that I showed up in…well, at all!




Blame it all on my roots

that I showed up in boots  … that I showed up at all!



It’s late (if you can’t tell from the text above) :), it’s storming outside and hubby hasn’t made it home yet. He’s at the Chicken Auction…(like we need more baby chicks) :-)


Anyway, I’m lying here and my heart is heavy as I think about faithfulness…


Where do our priorities lie? What is of utmost importance to us?  What are we teaching our children?


I do not care who you are, where you live, how much money you make, or what your position or title is…If there is something (anything) keeping you from your #Mission, your #Ministry, your #Calling…you best #LetItGo.




It is not of God.


If something is causing you to miss worship when you normally wouldn’t,  if something is causing you to show up late when you were normally early, if something is causing you to separate yourself from your Christian friends and/or family, if something is causing you to put your spiritual needs on the back burner…



These actions show a great deal of where you place your priorities and is also teaching your children what they should hold of utmost importance.


I was raised in a home where #Faithfulness to our mission was not only encouraged but expected.


I thank God for this.


However, I look around me today and see a world full of faithless, lazy, self-centered people!


Scripture tells us in the book of Matthew that we are to ‘deny ourselves, take up our cross and follow Jesus… which means to ‘die daily to our own flesh and desires’ …   I think we as a people are, as mentioned above, faithless,  lazy,  and self absorbed….dying daily to our flesh means to put away our selfishness!


It means standing when we want to sit. It means walking away when we want to rebuttal and defend, it means turning down the late night movie on Saturday if it keeps us from church on Sunday,  it means saying NO to self and YES to God!


Will you join me today as I swallow down this hard reminder myself?







Let it Rain…




Y’all, it’s been raining in Southern Oklahoma for 237 days straight.  Ok, so maybe I’m exaggerating just a little but it has rained A LOT.


And it’s STILL raining.


Homes are flooded, hospitals are flooded, gardens are ruined, yards are now ponds, and the lake is just about to maximum capacity.


So what does flooding and the lake and all this have to do with being a pastor’s wife or a woman of God?


I’m glad you asked.  :)


To fill you in just a little bit about how things work in my neck of the woods, when the area has flooded, on Lake Texoma there is a huge Dam that…well, holds the lake where it is supposed to be…


“Impounding 89,000 acres of water, the dam itself is a mere five miles NW of Denison, Texas. It borders on the Texas counties of Cooke and Grayson and on the Oklahoma counties of Bryan, Love, Johnson and Bryan. The Flood Control Act of 1938 authorized construction of the dam which is a rather rare type known as a rolled-fill earth embankment. The length of the dam is 165 feet high and over 15,000 feet long. While the primary purpose of the dam is controlling floods, it also generates electrical power and the lake is an extremely popular recreational destination. Completed 1944, Texoma is today the second largest lake in Texas and the eleventh largest reservoir in capacity in the United States. Its main purposes are flood control, power generation, and recreation. The waters are impounded by Denison Dam.”
(Information gathered from here.)

(Hang with me here…I’m going somewhere with this.)


(Here is a picture of the Denison Dam when the waters are low.  If you will see where the green grass is, that is where all the water will be and when the levels get high enough, they flow (sometimes GUSH over the edge and down stream.)

The water going over the Denison Dam Spillway is not ideal.  There are homes and land down stream that will be effected if this takes place.  So in order to slow this process down, we have something known as the flood gates.

(Pictured here are the flood gates when the lake levels are low and no threat.)

(And now…here is a picture of the floodgates OPEN.  They need to release this water in order to minimize the amount of water that will soon be pouring over the spillway.)

Now, to couple this with what the Holy Spirit is echoing throughout my soul

“Test me in this,” says the Lord Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.” – Malachi 3:10b

Did you see the picture of the floodgates open?  That wasn’t just a little sprinkling of water.  That was a powerful and mighty rush of water that would, without a doubt, overpower and wash over anybody or anything in it’s path.

The Merriam-Webster Dictionary describes a floodgate as “something serving to restrain an outburst“.

“Lord, open the floodgates of Heaven.  I want Your presence to overpower me.  I want You to have complete and total control over me.  Who I am … what I say … where I go … what I wear … what I do with my free time … the way I brush my teeth.  Here I am Lord.  I am willing to accept an outburst of Your Spirit so that it washes away my entire being.
More of you Lord, less of me.
ALL of you Lord, NONE of me.”

 *And here it is!*

May 24, 2015




Finding Joy through a Servant’s Heart



“For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”Mark 10:45

Around our home right now we are learning a lot about becoming a humble servant and praying for a servant’s heart.


Ministry isn’t always about cheese and sprinkles! Sometimes it’s ugly, sometimes it’s hard, sometimes it’s about giving more than receiving. No, I take that back. Oftentimes it’s about giving more than receiving.


But this is OK. It’s still all worth it!


I began Confessions of a Blessed Pastor’s Wife in order to help others find JOY in their journey….to help them navigate through life, not in the mundane but in the EXTRAordinary! But through this, I cannot WILL NOT let my own children lose their JOY in serving others.


Not long ago I had a long, heartfelt talk with my 9 year old son about the importance of serving God at full speed.


The best approach to loving what we do is to live as Christ and serve others with all of our heart.


If you will remember, we currently pastor a church of approximately 75 people (over 100 this last week), 3 times a week in our home. Granted, we are very close (just a few weeks) to getting into our new building but we have been serving God in this capacity for over 2 years. Our bedrooms, living room, and den all become Sunday school rooms every week while our garage is a full time sanctuary. We do not have a nursery so on some days my kids’ rooms are visited by children during service times.


This sometimes upsets my son.


He may be the pastor’s son but he is human too and has to learn and grow just like the rest of us do. He doesn’t quite understand WHY they think this is ok but more importantly I want him to learn WHY we do what we do and HOW to truly love and embrace this season of our lives.


God called us to this ministry and when I say “us”, I do not mean just me and my husband. He called US as a family. I don’t just reprimand my son for being frustrated or not understanding. I desire for him to learn ‘not’ to be frustrated and to understand why.


This picture is of my trash can after one of our church services.  It is filled to the brim with water bottles.  These bottles were strewn all throughout our home.  Austin helped me empty and trash all of these bottles while we had this conversation.  We had fun while doing it and made a game out of it.  I was able to be that walking example of finding JOY in the ‘not so glamorous’ part of our Journey.  It helped. :)


I explained to him how God has blessed us with a nice home in order to hold these services and he has blessed them with fun toys in order that they may share their blessings with others. If God did not see our family fit to serve in this capacity, we may not have this big house or all these toys to be able to share with others.


My son is beginning to understand this. Will he question seasons like this again? Probably. Is this ok? Absolutely!


My children will walk JOYfully in Servanthood, as did Christ.


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God gives us spiritual gifts and these gifts require growth…these gifts mature over time…


If we bypass these seasons of growth or ‘throw it in the microwave rather than the slow cooker’, we will not mature in our gifts and we will continue to stay as newborns in our walk with God.


We must make the most out of our ‘growth opportunities’ so that we can be used at maximum capacity and in the fullness of the power and the authority that Christ has placed within us.

Be the CHANGE you want to see in the world.


As you read this post this morning my 14 year old niece is just arriving (after a 14 hour flight) in Krakow, Poland for her very first overseas (I do not believe this will be the last) mission trip.


*Bailee on her first plane ride ever!  14 hours! Yikes!*




*Myself and Bailee the night before she left.  Uhggg…my heart is breaking…but smiling at the same time…*



Words cannot even express the way I feel right now. I am scared, excited, at peace, crazy out of mind, and super-duper proud all at the same time! How is this possible?


The amazing thing about this girl? This isn’t simply a ‘fun little getaway Summer trip’ for her. She knows why she is going and for Whom she is going for.  God has phenomenal plans for her and this is just the beginning! 


She will be gone for 10 days and then I will post a follow up with Miss Bailee as our guest so we can hear all about this amazing journey.


Please be in prayer for the safety of her and her entire group as they do a work for the Lord and also her parents as God gives them a supernatural peace that we know can only come from Him.

“We are settling for a Christianity that revolves around catering to ourselves when the central message of Christianity is actually about abandoning ourselves.” – David Platt

Thank you!

The Choice is Yours…


“The Israelites said to them, “If only we had died by the LORD’s hand in Egypt! There we sat around pots of meat and ate all the food we wanted, but you have brought us out into this desert to starve this entire assembly to death.” – Exodus 16:3

If you are familiar with this passage of scripture at all then you will know that Moses had just led the Israelites out of a land of slavery and bondage.

If you are anything like me you are probably thinking, ‘Really? Do you not know what God has done for you? Did you not see all the miraculous things that took place right before your eyes? What about the plagues God sent to prove Himself to Pharaoh? What about the sea splitting right down the middle so that you could walk across dry ground…AND THEN as your enemy approached, the waters fell and swallowed them up? Did you miss that part of your story?’

Of course we can see this from our point of view. But what about when we are in our very own wilderness? What about those times we forget about our promise? What about those moments of despair when we feel spiritually dry and hungry? Do we not sometimes mumble and complain while we are waiting?

And if we aren’t careful, we begin to glamorize our past and how ‘maybe, just maybe’ it wasn’t that bad after all…

And this is where the enemy begins to take root, if we allow him.

We have a choice.

In verse 4 the Lord says, “I will rain down bread from heaven for you. The people are to go out each day and gather enough for that day. In this way I will test them and see whether they will follow my instructions.”

So this is where our choice comes in. Do we choose to obey the voice of God or do we seem to think we know more than Him and take it upon ourselves to do what needs to be done?

Obedience may not be easy, but it’s worth it.

Follow up in verse 9: The Israelites were told to “Come before the Lord”…even in their mumbling and complaining…He had heard them. And he hears you too.

Even in our crabbiest of times, God still wants us to ‘come into His presence’.

When we walk in humble obedience, God always provides. He always protects, He always comes through. Even in our wilderness when it seems like there is no way out. Remember what God brought you out of, remember your promises, and hold fast to the fact that God is always on time!