I’ve questioned God, or in the very least, asked myself, “Why me? Why do I have to do ‘this’ and how come she is able to do ‘that’?
You see, my walk with God may not look just like yours. But this is OK. I’m happy with who I am in God…truly I am. That is until I begin taking my eyes off Jesus and looking at others.
Let me take you to a very familiar point of scripture. It may not make sense in the beginning but hang with me…it should in the end.
And in the fourth watch of the night Jesus went unto them, walking on the sea.
26 And when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a spirit; and they cried out for fear.
27 But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying, Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid.
28 And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water.
29 And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
‘Bid me come Lord!’ I say this…but do I truly mean it? I mean, I want to walk the way God wants me to walk…but on my terms. Oh wait, that doesn’t make sense does it? Let’s try this again. I want to rise to a new level in God…but on my time. Oh…that doesn’t work either. I want to ‘fix my eyes on You Lord…but look at others in the process. I want to know why you’ve asked me to wear skirts all the time when these high profile women’s speakers are modest in their jeans and highly favored and anointed all the same.
These questions don’t come often…but they do come.
Your questions and doubts may not look just like mine. You may be one of these mighty anointed women of God that can do her thing while being modestly dressed in a pair of jeans but still question why other women are able to be a stay at home momma when you have to work a full time job outside of the home.
Ladies, we may all be different but still so much the same. We all have struggles and look at other women and want what they have. If you are anything like me it has nothing to do with material things but everything to do with eternal things. You desire to have a ministry like hers or a life like hers…
I wonder if just maybe during these moments we’ve simply taken our eyes off Jesus.
I know scripture doesn’t quite say this but I wonder if just maybe, while looking at the storm around about him, Peter looked over at the boat and thought “How come I had to be the first one to say ‘bid me come Lord’? Why did I have to open my big mouth? How come they get to stay in the boat but I felt led to take that step over the edge and draw closer to the Lord? Why can’t I stay in the boat too? I know they are going to be used as mightily as I am and they are safe and sound inside the boat…dry…and not sinking…”
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
Ladies, it’s OK that our walks all look different. It’s ok that we are not all cookie cutter. It’s ok…because I might can reach someone that you can’t…and you might can reach someone that I can’t.
This is all part of God’s great plan!
I may choose the Color Run and you may choose the Mud Run…but our destination is all the same!
God has called you to be an ORIGINAL not a DUPLICATE! Stand firm in who He created you to be and keep your eyes on Jesus!
This is your walk, not hers!